ok well abit about my situation, i am 24 and i have 2 wonderful kids , my son has just turned 4 and my daughter is 3 weeks old, i have had c sections with both.
my son was breech so i had no choice, but i still felt very upset as i was only 20 and very much wanted a natural birth, i had no problem bonding with him at all i didnt get enough breast milk so i could bf which i was devastated about.

my daughter, well, she was head down , engaged and i was having a hell of a time with very bad braxton hicks for weeks, they were only giving me till 39 weeks to go naturally and if i didnt then c section.

WELL at 38 weeks and 4 days i had an internal, cervix still very tightly closed and thick, so i was booked in the next day for a c section.

i feel like a complete failure, my body didnt do what it was ment to , i got an infection this time and it made my milk go sour so i could bf her, i feel like less of a women, i had no problem bonding thank god but i just feel so lost and disappointed in my self,

im sorry im rambling, but has anyone else felt the same and maybe have some advice on how to get through this, im just so lost and angry