I also had an emergency CS, but in early July. I have the numbness too. I just wanted to say I understand the disappointment you are feeling, the labour I had before the CS was pretty traumatic, as reading between the lines I'm guessing yours may have been also. So here is a big for you.

I wanted a natural labour, but ended up with the exact opposite. Afterwards one of the midwives at the hospital was counselling me about my experience. There was one thing that she said that has helped me to accept that my body didn't do what I wanted it to. She told me that in third world countries where they don't have the medical system we have, one in six babies die during birth. She didn't actually say it, but I suspect that if I hadn't have been able to have a CS chances are we could've fallen into that category. It's an awful thought, but for me it made it much easier for me to accept the way things went.