Sweetheart! I can't believe that you have to now look for counselling (which will be ongoing, as opposed to a once-off) because a specialist can't be bothered doing after hours work! Couldn't the money you use on counselling go towards the person's overtime? Sorry, this is probably unhelpful if you are not willing to push a little more for some personalised care during such a vulnerable time for you and bub - just something to consider, to save yourself what might be unnecessary trauma for you both I can't believe how specialist-centred birth has become! Best wishes for the counselling - a good counsellor is worth keeping on your Christmas card list