s C'smumma - I hope you have had a chance to debrief and are starting to heal that grief. I hope you have a much better birthing experience next time round, I found my second birth completely healed the trauma from the first. The anaesthetist did say that if a person had ever had a problem with any anaesthetic they would look at the notes and gather all the info very carefully so they could get it right the next time, so it might be worth making sure the notes/xray are in your file. *touchwood* that they won't need it, and you've certainly come to the right place to get all the info and support you need for a VBAC. Good luck