so my c/s is booked for 3rd April and i'm now starting to freak out. When I had my c/s with ds, it was an emergency after being in intense labour for 3 days, he was in distress and I didn't have time to even think about the things that can go wrong. Now i have all the time in the world to think of all of the worse case scenarios and its doing my head in

I'm scared of getting the spinal, i'm scared of getting cut open while i'm awake, i'm scared that something might go wrong and I will start to have a panic attack or something.

any ideas of how to ease my mind? i'm secretly hoping I go into labour and birth this baby via VBAC, but thats a whole other story of what if's etc that do my head in