We already have the cot and change table on layby, in a deal the cheapest we could find without giving up safety and quality, and we are struggling to pay that off. This is why I'm worried.
We had decided to leave things like the pram, until after the baby was born because we could use a sling for a while its still small. But now I cant see us being able to afford anything else before or after the babys born and I guess I just feel a bit lost and unable to cope. I just dont know how were gonna do it.
I know they dont have to give us the money but because I was told I would get it then it did become something we relied on, iykwim? I know babies cost alot more than that but it is a huge help to us even if others dont see it that way.

*sigh* I didnt mean to be rude. Just needed to get it out. I've been really stressed out about a lot of things the last few days and I'm finding it very hard to cope. Sorry if I offended anyone that was never my intention.