Awww big hugs love, and good on your for speaking up and acknowledging that you arent coping! My little boy was very difficult with his reflux and the only thing we found that helped was a swing that goes side to side (recommended for babies with reflux). I have a bad back as well so baby wearing wasn't an option for me. Im in perth as well and im happy to help out. Even if it means coming up and watching the kids so you can have a bath or go for a walk and clear your head x