Hi Babysocks,
I really feel for you and can empathize for where you're at. My little guy was like that around the same age. I found comfort in reading the 'wonder weeks' book at that time. In the book it discusses that the little ones are becoming more aware of their surroundings. Anyhow, despite all of that, you are doing the right thing. You are mum. Some kids are just like that. Your a wonderful mum. Hang in there. There are mums out there like us, that have little ones who are 'alert'. I promise that eventually it passes. It IS a phase.
Take care, Lilly.