the medication DD2 is on for fluid behind teh ear drums is working or my decision to discontinue trying to nightwean and go back to feeding is...
because things are better (well yesterday and today so far) she fed at 10pm and 3am and when i popped her back to bed she wasnt tense like she had been, and she slept for 90 mins yesteday and so far 75mins today!!

so im going with the second point that going back to whats best for bubs and not me is definatly the right thing for all of us!

phew pity it took me a few weeks to work that one out i feel silly. bad and guilty..but the past is the past and were moving on!!