I have no idea what's going on in my head . We decided to stop at 4 and up until now I have felt really good with that. DH has always wanted one more but he has never put any pressure on me and left it up to me to decide and I decided on NO MORE. Now all I want is to be pregnant. I'm already 40, then I think could I cope with 5 children, sometimes 4 drive me crazy. Then I think of that beautiful little newborn that I would just love to hold and breastfeed. I'm hoping this feeling will pass, havn't said anything to DH because I know he would want to start trying tonight . What if this feeling doesn't go away. Oh why, oh why? Thanks for reading.

Regards,
Dianne