OK so I am crazy very crazy.

My DH and I have been TTC for 2 years now and I am booked into have a lap done next week to see what is going on..

But I am quitely freaking out as I am currently 14 DPO with no sign that my AF is comming nor any sign that I am preganant in my usual cycle I would have AF by now (I have never made it to 14DPO) or I would assume at the very least some "dirty" CM - I have neither I have sticky CM but it appears to be as white as the driven snow. My cervix is a complete mystery to me and all I know is that it is soft (open or closed both feel the same to me)..

The thing is I do not want to test - the thought that I might see a BFN makes me want to cry BUT the thought that I might see a BFP makes me want to be sick...I am bonkers, crazy, ready for the nut house.

Surley after 2 years I can not be pregnant the idea is just so weird to me..I have no symptoms of anything no sore nipples, no nausa (well I do but it just me be anxious) none of the typical symtoms I do not even have creamy CM..

I think I will wait until Friday if nothing by then I will test.

I just had to get it all out. It just seems so weird that I "might" be pregnant and it is freaking me right out.