Thanks so much for everyone's replies...they mean so much. All my friends seem to be pg or have babies atm so its wonderful to be able to talk to someone (other than hubby and my mum). I'll try to provide a bit more info/answer some of the qns...I REALLY appreciate all the suggestions. Keep them coming!!!

I'm 30.5 yrs old (yep 77 was a good year ) and have been married 15 months. I had my implanon out 2 years ago and have not been on any contraception since (i made hubby take care of it! ) I have never paid much attention to my cycle before TTC. AF is usually fairly light and only lasts 3-4 days - but AWFUL period pain. I had checks for this 5 years ago and my uterus looked OK then!

For the last 10months we have not been using any contraception at all (no condoms basically) but didn't know my cycle and was not DTD much in the right time frames. For the last 6 months have been tracking cycles using Fertility Friend - but not temping - OPKs and CM etc. My first 3 cycles (Jan, Feb, March) were all 28 days spot on - and Ithink they were like this before as AF always arrived on a Saturday (handy with the cramps). Cycle 4 (April)was 34 days - which just got my hopes up! And C5 (may) was 33 days (also hopes raising) Am now on Day 16 of cycle 6 with a positive OPK day 14 and pains (which may have been ovulation?)day 15. Not sure about CM this cycle? I take a pregnancy multivitamin and do Weight Watcher Points program (mostly) ...but will now cut out any transfats! I have given up caffeine (sob...diet coke) and alcohol (mostly ) and exercise regularly.

I have no rational reason for worrying about conception...but I want it soooo badly. I have lived a blessed life. A wonderful family, husband, friends, job....I guess I feel that something has to be hard?or go wrong? And I am petrified that it will be having children. I have also seen a clairvoyant (shame) and she told me I would have trouble TTC and need "a little bit of help" and have twins EEK...I don't actually take this seriously!

I know patience is a virtue and that TTC can take time. I'm just not getting any younger and I would like to have 3-4 kids? I feel like going to the docs will help me "take control" of whats happening (BTW did I mention I'm a perfectionist control freak!

Thanks for listening...just putting it all down helps to give me some perpsective.

Kylie