goldilocks,

We have been on this ttc journey for a very long time and still the hardest part for me is seeing the crushed look on my DH face every month when AF rears her ugly head.

I remember the day almost 4 years ago when DH and I decided we wanted to have a baby. It was the happiest day of my life (equally with my wedding) we went on a long walk and talked and talked about having children and the joy that would bring into our lives. Even though I had many female issues in the past, I guess a part of me thought that it would just happen. The first couple of years it was all quite casual, we had alot going on in our lives and while I was quietly disappointed when AF came every month we didn't really talk about it. DH was very reluctant to talk about anything to do with ttc as he felt it would jinx us. Last year I had to go and have an operation to look at things & remove some endo. It was after this that we decided it was time to get serious. My DH is very involved in this journey, he is just wonderful. He so supportive of whatever alternative therapy I choose to take, he will take whatever vitamins I suggest might be worth trying, he does not drink during the time of the month that we call the bd-athon (sex-a-thon to him!!!), he takes his temp every morning as a show of support to me, he is there to hug & comfort me when I get sad. Bascially I could not ask for a better man to be on this difficult journey with.

It took awhile to get him to talk about his feelings, but it was a case of I had to help him to help myself iykwim. He HATES pregnancy tests and he doesn't even look at them (too many times of me saying, I am sure there is a line) .

I hope you have a BFP really soon.

xox