Wow, Lisa - what a decision to have to make! I sincerely hope that you can improve your health with the CBT and that you don't need to go back on the meds - or that you're pg by November anyway. Will pregnancy affect your condition at all? I imagine the hormones would have to do something? Good on you for staying strong, it mustn't be easy to cope with a mental illness, and there is so much misinformation and lack of compassion in society. You go girl.