i just popped around to my mums house for a bite to eat and i turned on oprah.

I have wathed oprah maybe 5 times in my whole life.....today it was about a mum who died when her daughter was 6 and she made a whole heap of videos for her to watch of her mother for the rest of her life.

i cried so damn hard.....i couldnt stop. then i had to turn it off so i called my sistr who was bawling. it turns out she was watching it too!!

so we had a huge cry together then finally ran out of tears. then she told me our sister in law is pregnant with their 2nd child. i get off the phone and cry again.

then i cry some more cos im so tired and my tummy hurts.

i cant cope anymore.....if im not pregnant this month i dunno what im gunna do