Anila, it's funny you say that about the manual. I was thinking the other day how annoying it was when I asked mum something and most of the time she gives me her best answer, but then rounds off with "but I can't really remember" So, in preperation for when I have kids I went out today and bought a nice notebook that I'm going to start writing lifes drama's in. All about my loss, trying to conceive, being pregnant, being female in general, everything. So when my kids asks me something I can give them a exact recount of what I experienced I've just got to keep up the motivation to stick to it!