Thanks for your support Ryn. I went home last night and had a big cry to DP. He was very supportive and he said it will be our turn soon. I know it will be! I said to DP that I'm probably more upset about it because AF arrived. I was upset about getting that and then SIL tells me and I went from 'poo AF arrived' to 'Shes PG and I'm not'

Today I can sit back and think Wow I could be an aunty again! whereas yesterday i was just highly emotional. I know she is very scared and not very well informed about these things, so i would like to be very supportive of her. In fact she was so scared about the whole thing that she asked that we get PG together, so we were both planning on starting TTC in Oct this year, but then DP and I decided not to wait. Well it hasn't happened for us, but maybe for her.

As for my family, they wouldn't really understand anyway. For some reason my whole life i've never been allowed to be sad or in a bad mood. I guess in some ways they are very old fashioned. So if they saw that I wasn't really feeling that great at the moment, I'd probably cop a mouth full. I would never come out and say i was unhappy about this to my family though, because this is (or it could be ) a happy time for them and it wouldn't be fair to them or my brother and SIL. But my mum and I usually talk about everything, so i'm finding it very hard not to go to her at the moment.

I really like the card idea. I'm going to do that for sure.

Ryn thanks a lot for your advice. Its been great having BB to talk out all my problems.