howdy,

Well i plucked up the courage to go to my new dr's 2nite. I was at the point where i felt like i had to stop putting things off and deal with it. Some of u, in some of the threads i have had i thought were pg symptoms very sore bb's, some nausea and tired at times. Not to mention the leakage in my right bb(which i still have and they are still sore at times). And i told him about my 2 af cycles that were shorter than normal.

Any way i told this to him and he checked my bb's for lumps or abnormalities(sorry TMI) but thank goodness everything was ok so thats a + at least. He then suggested doing a pg, so i spent the next few moments very nervous and im sure it showed. But much to my disappointment it was BFN . Im so over the concieving thing atm , i just wanna give up trying, i hate the thought of BFN's all the time and being disheartned, i feel its takin its toll on me emotionally.

I still feel pg at times.......but when he did the urine sample for the pg test it was a definite -ve(i wish the sore bb's would stop hurting, and only hurt coz im pg). Im sick of my body playing awful tricks on me(damn confusing) I have to pull myself together and think +ve but its hard when you have had so many disappointments, it becomes really hard to get excited about the thought of getting pg let alone go full term. I at times feel inadequate and a failure(sorry...so negative).

Well at least the doctor didnt just talk mumbo jumbo, send me on my way with scripts and i walk away no closer to knowing what the problem is. He was kind and listened to everything i had to say.

I sure hope the gyn can help with finding out why i cant concieve and give me the long awaited answers i need to know.

Ne way once again sorry for going on and on, but it does help to get it off my chest.

Heres hoping for a real sooooooooon and these damn symptoms i have at the moment go away and come back when its the real deal(pg i mean....lol!!)

Im gonna pray for me and for ne1 else thats on the ttc bandwagon......gone spread heaps of and to all the pg ladies atm hope u are all having safe and enjoyable pg's.

cheers
Malimum