oh come one.....its not THAT bad
When I've just finally come to peace with my decision to stay with the 3 kids and not go for a 4th - it is bad.. I don't want to have to process it all again ya know? Hard enough the first time round

I'd love a 4th just as much as the others, but I don't want to think about it being possible because then a little part of me gets my hopes up ya know? Then I get hurt when I'm not...