Ok so i have been sitting here all night going through so far 27 pages in the conception forum looking for anything that i can relate too, lol.

So i am on cd35 and today i had a small 10 cent size pale pink spotting, i thought its too late for implant bleed and i thought i od somewhere between cd17 and 19, so i thought af was on the way, so far no af, doesnt mean she is not comming but havent had any more sign of her.

Im so confused, in a way im causing my own confusion by stressing over all this.

So far my cycles have been cd 28, 32, 35, 42, 40, then i got my bfp then i lost my bfp at 6 weeks 2 days, i had what i thought was o pain on cd17, 18 and 19, I used to o on cd 19, but only a dot of clear cm on cd18, i have had sore boobs and cramping almost everyday since, also feeling queasy the last week.
I have had more cm in the past week than i have had all month.

I put my longest two cycles of 42 and 40 days in the o calender and it gave me an o day of cd 27 and cd29, we dtd on cd 27, so the timing is right, i had some low lying cramps on that day and some wet cm ( but could have been the spemies comming out), i havent had my usual dolop of ewcm at all since the mc.
The o calender put me at 8 dpo on the 42 day cycle and said implantation could happen today, then said have u had any spotting! So that got my hopes up.

Im just so confused as to what my body is doing, and not knowing what cycle im having this month i dont know when af is due.

Could it be possiable that the pain i had on cd17-19 was not o, and that i have o late, and had no o signs at all, or am i clutching on to straws and the spotting i have will turn into af?

( i know u cant really answer my queastion, but i just needed to get it off my chest.)

I will test in a few days if no more spotting and af hasnt shown.

Thanks