To TTC or Not to TTC?

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WHY is it so difficult to decide?

There is no logical reason for us to have another bub - we have two gorgeous little ones already, we all get along wonderfully, as soon as #2 is a little less attached I will be able to get fit and healthy again, take up other interests, maybe get a job so we'll have enough money for all the extras we'd like for the children. If we have another we will need to build onto the house, get a bigger car, find another $2000 or so for the homebirth etc. I will probably not get a full nights sleep for another few years, I won't be able to work, study, exercise or have any life of my own. We won't be able to afford a holiday for ages. Hubby and I will be outnumbered by the littlies. I can hardly manage these two, so who knows I might have a nervous breakdown or something with the third... Also we didn't conceive #2 until #1 had weaned himself. Dd shows no signs of weaning herself, so I will probably have to wean her if I want to get pregnant, and I really don't want to do that yet.

But in spite of it all, I have this irrational desire for one more. A little nagging feeling that our family is not yet complete. Is this a good enough reason, or is it just the "I might not be having any more" freak-out?