So sorry it hasn't taken. It is really difficult. And you're right it's hard not to be obsessed cause you get so hopeful. The first one is always hard. It took nine IVF cycles for me I get a live baby. She is now six months old. It's definitely worth it. But it is harder the older you get. Join the LTTTC and AC thread there are lots of ladies in there going through assisted conception at the moment. The support is invaluable xo