Thank you all for such kind words.

I guess what I really needed was to hear it from an outsider with no...can't think of the word, but kind prejudices. For either direction.

Hopefully if we're working toward all of those things (wedding, house, stability, etc - though planning a wedding may be hell depending on how his mother goes with it...she's asked when she's getting 'her' wedding already!) it'll make the waiting easier. I know I always used to feel I'd wait until I was Ready, with spare cash and all! But after reading a lot of forums (*lurker*) I see that a lot of the time, being Ready just never happens and you've gotta just take the plunge at some point, and I guess I took that too far.

Maybe I can offer to babysit for Sara (the only woman I trust with my hair XD)...her baby Paige would be around 8 months now, I think, and she's the most beautiful big fat girl! Even if she DID try to make me flash everyone last time I held her

@angelaartsstudent, wow, 16? How did you do that? I'm hoping to be able to get an apprenticeship or something like that with a place nearby, I'm friends with the florist I did work placement at 2 years ago, and they're very friendly with their design people, and have said they'd talk to them about helping me out. So hopefully that will work out some time this year. At the moment, though, I'm in my post-new years freakout >.<

Oh, and very sorry if I sounded whiny and pathetic in last night's post - I was tired as heck and miserable without Rex there, gotten so used to him cuddling me to sleep it was weird without him! I'm not normally like that.