Thanks ladies I know what you mean N2L, don't worry! Mentally, I seem to have to place blame somewhere though. Another thing I'm working on. But I had to change my focus a couple years ago, because I was counting calories and looking at meal breakdowns and obsessing over exercise to an unhealthy point, and was blaming myself when my weight didn't go down. I can't let myself get to THAT point again, so in my head I've changed it to 'exercising so I feel healthy, even if my weight doesn't change'. Does that make sense?