hun. I'm sorry you're going through and have been through so much. I have huge issues with myself too, but it is opposite for me in that I can't stop eating and putting weight on at the moment. I was exactly the same size as you when I met DH at 19 until my first m/c, and have steadily put about 5 kg's on after each pg. Now I'm up to about 85kg and have never been so fat. I hate it. I had issues before this too, all my life actually, probably from my dad and brothers I think. Anyway, I didn't want this to be about me, lol!! But I have some idea of how you feel.

A thought occored to me reading your story, could you have a hormone imbalance maybe? Perhaps your thyroid? I'd definately see a doctor and have some testing done.