Thanks for the tips and support, ladies I'm just stuck in such a frustrated state of mind because I've lost the vast majority of the actual 'baby weight' (ie, belly & hips) and although my lower body needs a bit of toning, I'm not too unhappy with it. It's my upper body - flabby upper arms, huge pads of fat and loose skin on my back and under my arms (like beside my boobs, down my ribs) that is proving impossible to shift. I'm doing everything I can think of to work my back, shoulders and arms and it doesn't seem to be making a whit of difference - to be honest I'm not even using scales to measure weight, just my trusty tape measure and seeing how a certain outfit fits on me to determine whether any change is happening, and so far, no good. I'm so desperate to get rid of these disgusting arms - my upper arms are nearly four times the width of my forearms, and it's so disproportionate and ugly it makes me sick to look at. Trying different clothes to hide it doesn't help, as baggy/looser-fitting clothing on my upper body just makes me look like an elephant, and even *more* disproportionate when I have a pair of twigs with knees sticking out underneath it all, kwim? If I was a nice, even size 14 all over I wouldn't worry about losing weight or getting into shape, but because I have size 9 hips and legs and from the waist up I'm much, much bigger, it's really messing with my head.

I am trying to be sensible about my eating, as in 6 small meals/snacks rather than 3 larger meals, but as a recovered anorexic it's really hard to avoid falling back into the old habits of excessive exercise and obsessing about food. Of course I don't want to go there, for my own health as well as providing a good example to my girls, but it's a fine line when I'm so preoccupied with how awful I'm looking right now