ohhh sweets, I will send you as much sympathy as I can muster, you are having a hard time of things at the moment. I usually feel down for about a week after a failed transfer but I totally understand that you fall in to yet another slump, it comes and goes and as you say things trigger the feelings again and unfortunately these things can't be avoided I am sending you a huge big cyber hug and I am hoping you'll have a brighter day tomorrow at least it will be the weekend and you will have a couple of days of ME time I hope