I do. All the time.

Its funny, as a teenager I just couldn't wait to be in my mid 20's, because for me that was the pinnacle of being................mature and grown up I guess. The time when other people start taking you seriously.

Now I'm in my mid 20's, I still feel like I'm a child at a party full of grown ups. I keep waiting for the moment where everything just clicks and I enter the world of adults. I dont know how much more 'adult' I wanna be; 1 husband, 3 kids and a whole host of stressful responsibility.

I hate second guessing myself, my ability to be intelligent and hold a conversation, my ability to be a friend, wife, mother........I avoid social situations and because of that I am now one very lonely hermit. I just stress about meeting new people, esp women older than me, and it all snowballs from there and I end up just not bothering or I sit like a statue and pray for it to end without me looking like an idiot.

I just want to belong somewhere; I want to have close friends and have my kids grow up with loads of great people around them. It gets hard spending our entire lives living away from family so friends end up being the only constant faces in our boy's lives. I want to feel comfortable in my own grown up skin instead of always feeling like a gawky, hormonal 13 year old girl, unsure of herself and just trying to stay afloat.

When do you stop feeling like a square peg in a round hole?