Thanks for the responses everyone! Lulu I think you're so right. Sensuality is not something that can be separated from ourselves, but I think it is certainly repressed by many. Pleasure from our bodies seems ok when it comes to sex, but not when it comes to the nurturing role of mothers. I am not saying I get off on breastfeeding etc but that the tactile and visceral nature of mothering is enjoyable to me. Iykwim? It took me a while to embrace it, and tbh most of my frustration since dd was born have related to some resistance to embrace the physicality needed to care for her...as soon as I let go of social expectations and went with what felt right it's been awesome!