Making friends??

[BekZ]

Hi Everyone,

Generally I am pretty happy with my life and I am blessed with beautiful healthy kids and a loving DH. Over the years I have not had a lot of close girl friends and I find it so hard to make friends. I keep asking myself why??

Recently I have added some old school friends onto FB and have realised that most of these girls stayed friends or at least in contact. I had 3 very close friends at school but we busted up around 1 year after the end of year 12 because I went to work and they bummed around on the dole and our life styles were different. As for other friends I wonder why we didn't stay in contact.

So I take myself back to school days and start analysing myself and find that maybe I just wasn't very likeable. I know I wasn't popular but I wasn't unpopular either. I guess I was a middle of the road kinda kid with nothing exceptional to offer. Although I was fiercly loyal and I remember getting jealous if my friends didn't include me and i got upset if the loyality wasn't returned. I truely believed that I was being a great friend but prehaps I was a smootherer instead.

Fast forward to now: Well I am still a very loyal person although not so smoothering. Infact my DH tells me that I am a wonderful mum and provider for my family but I am distant emotionally. My only close friend is DH's sisterand most of my other friends were hers first.

I find it hard to have fun and relax -I'm the one at the party cooking or cleaning or hiding behind my kids doing stuff for them. I have introduced some many people to playgroup but I haven't got to know them because I am always busy organising activities. I seem to make myself busy


So help me ladies, how do I make friends?


PS Sorry if this post sounds a bit poor meish