Neurotic though by it's definition is defensive so that's a tough one Bath! Neurosis I believe is no longer used scientifically but was once defined as being unusually defensive, reactive, compulsive behaviors without halluciations etc. (short version)

So I am not sure you really are neurotic!

Rogue I guess not being able to stand toxic people is one way of seeing it - but then there has to be a judgement - a harsh one. Some can define toxicity as anything foreign to their own paradigm or way of thinking. Thus there is a fairly large sub section of toxicity! Is anyone just completely toxic? Perhaps they are but it could also be true that part of their behavior is toxic to different individuals.

I personally find racisim toxic but there are plenty of racists that are very kind loving mothers, brothers, partners etc - hell they are even doing "good works" in the community. So that part is toxic (to me) but as a complete packet not so... YK?

I think anyone who is negative and judgemental as you say is a reflection of their inner feelings - that is certainly a fairly well recognised thought. I know if I am feeling negative I react negatively outwardly. That's why I persomnally find it important to work on those feelings when they arise so I can minimise their projection on to others!

As for "sprouting affirmations and positivity" & being damaged. I dom't think I've crossed paths with a human that isn't damaged. We all have our battle scars - to me if someone is turning to positivity and affirmation to work on that damage it can only be healthy! I think that we are not individual stones we are all connected with a cement that binds us. So any positivity that a damaged friend tries to heal with affirmation, meditation or positivity etc can only be positive.

The more positively we speak, the more positivity we project the more we positively evolve. It's incredibly difficult to immerse yourself in a growthful journey and be bitter and angry and negative. Eventually if you continue you will grow more positive wings... I truly truly believe this. I have seen people completely bag out others for their "self help" & it is always the one doing the "self help" that flys in the end. That self help is different for us all. For some it will have a spiritual leaning, for some it will have emotional or historic connotations. But it's all good. WE are all different with different ways to learn that are best for us.

I remember when I was younger, brasher and much less kind really bagging out a friend who got into Amway and began sprouting how everything was "amazing" and it's a "great day"... We all took the wee out of him.

Well he is a successful man, with a gorgeous family, home, career and life - truly at peace with himself. That for him was the beginning of his journey to heal his damage that I think we all accumulate over the years... I remember feeling humbled and ashamed at my self importance at beliving he was being "programmed". Wehen really he was searching in his way - and it paid off.. (he didnt' stay with Amway it was just his beginning of growth)...

I actually am intrigued by bitter people as it takes so much energy to always be on the watch out for being wronged, always believing in ulterior motives - it must be exhausting. But if I look I can learn why it's important to learn to let go and it just teaches me again how important that is (but also how dang hard it can be also)...

We love to hold on to our stories of who we are. "I am a diviorced marriage failure", or I am an abused woman"... We can use that to preface who we are or use it to spring into newness. The same with our childhood pains. I have had so many but I can't hold on to them or they will eat me up - so I learned to let go. Hard hard stuff that probably took me 20years to do. It's my story but it doesn't define me any more or hold me in its grip. The uncle that raped me when I was a child had red head and a beard. Only now can I look at a man with a beard and not see his face. I remember the realisation of that hitting me and I just laughed and patted myself hard on the back for my "getting there"... But I am not sure any of us are ever "there". That is why judgement and standing in judgement of others worries me so much. Nobody can know anothers heart space truly. It's ours only.

I remember when I was about 6 my dad was a Police Officer and a freaky man tried to adduct me... Long story. He didnt' as I fled and screamed and anyway he was caught. He wanted to "pay back" my dad. For years I held on to the story that people would take me. I realised a few years ago that I still held that story as I had an irrational fear of people taking my kids in the night. It was based on not healing that fear and freak out I had at 6!!!

Anyway I just know that we are all damaged. We are all struggling. We have all suffered incredible pain that is all relative to us. I reckon with more love and understanding rather than disgust we can heal our society rather than it continue the way it is...