Slipping a bit today. I usually get extremely bitter come xmas anyway. I have always had to be the one to make the effort to spend xmas with anyone. We hosted Xmas last year for DHs family, but they made certain to let us know that they were doing us a favour when in reality we were trying to do them one by not having any of them spending xmas dinner worrying about their stuff with our kids, iykwim. We are hosting for my family this year but I wont see them until then. Even just 2 hours down the road, it still feels like we have to be the ones making the effort.

Just very down on the whole thing today. Going to bury myself in my uni work. Just at least until this passes.