Yeah I'm waiting so I can go to the local private hospital as my mother had a lot of trouble givng birth to both her children so I want to be in the best most comfortable care- my fiance's experiences with having kids also has him supporting private hospitals- well the one near us anyway. So we're waiting for the private health cover to kick in- not sure exactly how long you have to wait yet- but I'm finding it very hard to wait for. I'm also at uni so many people think I can't handle a child as I have my 'whole life ahead of me' but I'm over listening to other people as it led me to a life changing mistake, which nobody stuck around to help me deal with. I was in shock at the abortion clinic where I felt I was trying to make my eyes scream so they would stop me from goign through it- my signature on the forms should not have meant anything legally if I was assessed properly.

I'm so happy I ovulated and I hope when I try with clomid again it works- although I am still getting stomach pains from clomid and I'm on day 7 of my cycle (the one after I used clomid) and my emotions are all over the place and I'm tired a lot still so maybe I'll ovulate again as it maybe didn't wear off and it takes 2 weeks for the pill to kick in so maybe I'll be lucky- feels wrong hoping I'll get pregnant when I'm planning to wait- but really I just want it to happen- but I know I'll be happier if I get the private health cover too. Just when you want a baby this bad- private health cover is the last thing on your mind but I'm sure once I'm pregnant it will be terribly important, so I'm trying to be very rational.

Even though I have wonderful support from my fiance I feel very alone going through all this unless I am writing or reading on this website so thank you for communicating to me. Infertility is terribly lonely- and hard to go through it when ur partner doesn't feel the same frustration as he has never wanted children this badly before- all his have been conceived on demand practically which makes me feel worse as his ex rubs it in my face constantly and has worded the kids up to think I'll never have kids which made me cry last week and I almost hid in my room all day and missed out on uni- but plucked up the courage to go in the end (had so much practice at bouncing back these days having so much rubbed in my face with my infertility).

How are you dealing with it?