Hi Scarlett, I'm hearing a few things there that worry me a lot about your health, mental and physical. You've written that you feel like killing yourself, you want to cut yourself badly enough to make you die, and that you cut yourself last night. That's 3 times I've read you say really serious things which make me worry greatly about your state of mind. Forgive me for asking, but I work in the health field and we're told that when people start saying these things, there's a few questions we should ask. Firstly, are you considering suicide? Do you have a plan? And do you have the means to carry it out? If you find yourself answering yes to these then you urgently need medical assistance - please ring a Dr, Lifeline, your local community health centre, or your local community mental health service. Lifeline can help you talk through your feelings, and you may find assistance at the others as well. I really really worry about you Scarlett, and I hope you're going to be ok. I hope you aren't offended by me asking these questions, but I'm just concerned for your wellbeing and want you to be well and happy.

I found myself asking a work colleague those questions a year or two ago and was shocked by the answers - I found out he had answered yes to all of them and we just stopped him hurting himself. But he thanked me for asking as it set him on a new path.

please call someone and get help for both PCOS and your mental health - I wish you well, stay in touch.