Thanks for taking the time to read this ... I really just need some advice ... doctors can say what they say but at the end of the day they aren't living with this and dealing with the issues it brings.

I have endo and have had 3 laparoscopys "lap" in 3 years. I have stage 3 endo (American stages) and have been told by my doctor that i have to go on the pill. Back when i was first diagnosed with endo i was put on the pill and tried many different ones - it definitely didn't help and not only that, i was in for another lap after only 6 months. I am really hesitant about going down that path again. The doc said that i would go on the pill, have a lap after 6 months and if it didn't improve then come off the pill and get pregnant. I queried whether you had to wait a while after coming off the pill before getting pregnant and he said at least 3 months otherwise there was a high probability that my baby would end up with ADD! after being told that - i wonder what the pill would be doing to my body - i am not 100% sure that modern day medicines are the best thing.

I had a lap in September of last year and am already in a lot of pain again - i'm thinking i'll need another lap in the next 2 months going by the pain at the moment. that aside, my biggest concern is fertility - i think i can deal with the pain etc so long as i know that it is not reducing my chance of having a baby. i tried to talk to the doc about this but he brushed it aside. I've just turned 22 and while i've thought long and hard about the prospects of having a child early (and am prepared to do so) I would prefer to be in a better place than i am now - at the same time though i don't want to loose my chance.

i am just so confused about it all - i don't feel like anyone i talk to can really guide me in the right direction. am i doing the right thing? should i be on the pill? is this getting to the point where i should be considering pregnancy or not? is there other avenues i should be looking into ... anyone?