First of all, I don't know why I miscarried the first time. I know that you can request "genetic counselling" (Monash Medical Centre in Clayton, Victoria do it for example), but this is usually done after 3 miscarriages (and sometimes more). If they do a D&C, they can test the "sample" (sorry) there and then (although the results can take a few weeks), but again I think you have to request it. Would it be worth you and your husband checking out genetic counselling?

I got the sperm friendly lubricant (called Pre-Seed) online at Lullably Conceptions (just google it, that's how I found it). They are really quick to post it out, pretty cheap, and reliable. I also got my ovulation tester kit from them, and it was obviously accurate!

With anti-depressants, I have not tried them but I know quite a few women who have used them throughout pregnancy. Some of them have been tried and found to have no significant risks for pregnancy, including Edronax (category B1), Efexor (B2), and Lumin (B2). I have heard of good success with Edronax, and if it means it may help you "relax" enough to get pregnant... Do some research

I know this is so hard, and it's so easy to lose hope. How old are you? Not that this means much, but hopefully you are younger than me and have time on your side (I'm 35). You can also get "fertility counselling" for support from specialists if you get a specific referral - I know that Monash, the Epworth and the Royal Women's Hospital in Melbourne have this. If you get referred by a fertility specialist it is free, I think. I am considering it, depending on how things go. There are also PCOS and endo support groups - it helps to not be alone at at time like this, and to know other women "get it".

I'm scared too - my most (hopefully) irrational idea is that my partner will leave me for someone who can have children, and then I won't find anyone, and then... Picture the crazy cat lady who mumbles to herself. It sounds silly, but I'm scared of ending up COMPLETELY alone...

But now, an update:

I got my blood test results last night, and they were still going up but very slowely. The specialist had booked me in for an emergency ultasound for this morning, as she was thinking the pregnancy was either ectopic or getting ready to miscarry.

So this morning I went for the ultrasound, which showed A PERFECTLY SIZED SAC AND FETUS (exactly 6 weeks, 1 day, which is where I know I'm at) and a heart rate of 108-110 (again perfectly normal)! I could even see the tiny heart fluttering! I was crying like crazy!

My specialist is going to do another scan in 10 days, and she said a few women can have "strange" hcg levels but a normal pregnancy, so she is not going to do any more blood tests (which is a big relief).

Maybe there is hope???!!!! I know I could just as easily miscarry still, but the fact that the size and heartbeat are completely normal gives me some hope... And I hope for you to
Take care, I'll keep you posted.
Faith