Awwwww hun I didn't know you felt this way about it. FWIW, the scars will fade in time - I only know where one is from my first lap and that's because the stitch was supposed to dissolve and it didn't so it got a bit infected and left a bigger scar, I couldn't even see the one in my navel even with pg stretching it out. I know how you were feeling in the lead up to it and yeah, you didn't have a lot of time to get your head around it properly before you went in, let alone having a not-so-wonderful recovery on top of it.