Hey hun,

Please don't feel guilty! I gave my now 7 month old DD EBM for almost 3 months as she would just not accept the breast no matter what i did. It was a horrible experience for both of us and in the end she was a much happier baby (and me as a mother) just having the milk from a bottle. To make it special for us both i would hold her in the 'breast feeding' position and make eye contact the whole time etc - i actually still do this now. I never had the TV on or let myself be distracted during that time as it was my way of continuing to have the connection with her that i felt i would have had if she was actually bf.

Do whatever is good for the both of you, he will love you no matter how you feed DS. It's never 'wrong' to feel happier cos it's what suits you. I would feel so uncomfy around people who bf but i knew that i was doing what was right for me and DD and that at the end of the day she was getting the exact same thing as a 'properly' bf baby. Admittedly it's an inconvenience at times having to lugg around my pump (i hired a proper electric one) but by the end i could pump a full feed in 10 min as i double pumped so i got over that pretty quickly! I doubt it will decrease your supply as you have already established it (not 100%). You are NOT A BAD MUM at all, your just doing what is right for both of you.

Good luck sweet and let us know how u go! xoxoxo