Hugs x
I am hearing you! My bub is almost 5 weeks old and so those first few nights are fresh in my mind. My milk didn't come in for 5.5 days and I was getting the tiniest bit of colustrom when expressing before that. I was so shocked at how hard bf is and even though I had researched things I wasn't prepared for it.
Hang in there if you do want to bf everyday gets easier and I am glad I have kept going even when I have almost given up a few times xx