Thank you all for your open and honest replies. I have been reading and digesting your words, and come to the realisation that it doesn't matter. And it literally feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I truly believe God has a plan for all of us, and we will make our family work for us no matter what. Reading pros and cons for both makes me see that either way, there will be days I want to pull my hair out, and days where I'll think 'so glad I waited'.

And in the end, there's not a whole lot I can do about it now anyway, I just have to embrace what will be.

Thank you all again