I'm sorry you're having a rough time, just wanted to let you know that I know exactly how you feel and things will get better!! My boys were 17 months apart and it was tough for around the first 10 months. I have found that since DS2 started walking (he was an early walker at 9 months) things got easier, and then got easier again once he dropped to one sleep, he's now 16 months old and is starting to play with DS1, very cute watching them interact and play together. I'm having lots of fun with them now and I think my husband and I are coping quite well now, I go to the gym twice a week and he gets time to himself a couple of times a week. Those early months are hard, I just kept telling myself that it won't last forever! I know it can be hard but it is worth the effort to try and get out and have sometime to yourself, even to just get to the shops without having to set up stroller etc. I'm with you on needing alone time, unfortunately it's always when the boys are in bed, lucky I'm a night owl!