I was lucky enough to find a full-time job within about 15 mins of home when DD was 4.5 months old. I didn't mind the being home part, but didn't like the constant un-predictableness of having an infant. I felt out of control. I am a fairly structured person who likes to know what the day will bring and likes to plan ahead which is fairly hard with an infant. Also DH had quit his job due to stress so I had to work.

I've worked in admin for the past 5 years so I found it easy to get a job. However, when I tried on the clothes that I was going to wear for my interview I felt out of my depth and like I was "faking it" as I didn't feel capable or confident to have a career anymore. But, once I had the suit on for the interview and got out of the house, I suddenly got my confidence back and excelled in the interview. I started working 4 days later and even though it was a brand new job, the part of being at work was great and I felt like myself again. I think the experience will hopefully better prepare me for when I have my next bub.