Ive posted a few times over the years about my issues with DF and not being happy in my relationship. Well on Tues I finally bit the bullet. I spoke to my mw at my 6w check up and got a referral to the social worker and psych at the hosp. I spoke to the social worker on Thurs and she, along with the midwives have confirmed for me that it is an abusive relationship.
The social worker has given me some phone numbers to call to take steps to get out. Im still waiting to hear back from the psych.

Im scared and overwhelmed by it all but I'm not going to let it stop me this time. Im sick of being miserable and feeling like I can't do anything right. I have had enough. I dont want to live like this anymore and I don't want my children subjected to this toxic relationship anymore.

I want to get up and leave now but have to get a few things sorted out first.

So I'm just putting it out there for now.

The more I talk about it, the more accountable I am and likely to follow through.
The more I talk about it the stronger I feel.

I AM doing it this time.