We were sitting outside eating lunch on the deck, yesterday when a large black and white butterfly appeared. It hung around for 10 or 15 minutes; circling around our heads, landing on the trees and the railing beside me, disappearing behind the house before coming back and doing it again.
After a while, I put my hand out and almost immediately the butterfly came down and landed on it. It stayed there for about 1 minute, preening itself, before taking off again, circling our heads and then it was gone.

The whole time I had this lovely sense of calm. Even more amazing is Isaac, the boy who never sits still or quietly, particularly when asked, sat perfectly still and silent so as not to scare it away.

It will sound silly to some but since having the miscarriage I have always been drawn to butterflies. I see them everywhere and they always bring this sense of calm, but this was different. This time I immediately felt that it was my angel baby and "she" was sent to tell me I am doing the right thing.

Now I sit in bed, looking out the window, watching the kangaroos scratching, resting and grazing in the paddock, listening to cows mooing. Magpies and kookaburras singing and watching the sun rise over the tree tops
Holding one babe to my chest and listening to the other breathing deeply while he sleeps, I am content.
I am happy.
And for the first time in as long as I can remember, I am feeling anything but alone.