Thank you CourtRach, Kimbaz and Sally2 for your support. I would never have thought this site would help so much!

I am feeling very much like AF is upon me, but I still can't stop hoping that I'm wrong and really am UTD...
I have been away for work, so flying home today - hoping that will keep me a tiny bit distracted for a little longer. I don't want to see that big white space on the stick again...