I am so embarrassed but I need some advice on hemarrhoids.. Even after 4 pregnancies I have never had one until a couple days ago.. at least I think it is a hemarroid..

It wasn't to bad until late yesterday and I couldn't even sleep properly last night Everytime I moved it felt like I was going to tear..

I am using Pawpaw cream at the moment. I do have some witch hazel as I read somewhere on here to try that..

I am seriously to embarrassed to go to the Drs.. Is there anything else I can do or get??

Please help lol.. Oh and it is an external one from all the googling I have been doing,.. It isn't coloured like grapes though if that helps. It is just a skin coloured lump..

Now off to go hide as I am mortified I have even told anyone