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Although i am such a lightweight when it comes to the alcohol that no doubt you'll have to step over me and my hiccuping body to get to the bar....:rolleyes:
Sending all my strength for when you have to break the news, it's a tough one, but i guess once done there may be a sense of relief ITMS.
luv ya
xx
p.s. now i am on the pink patrol...watch this space!
N had hos first (pink) finger bun in your honour MD on the weekend
MD, been off-line a bit but have been thinking of you. Consider me one of the virtual hand--holders when you tell people, especially H - I can't think of much harder that. At least after Monday your mind can be still, you will be C-free which can only be a huge weight lifted.
I am so glad the lymph lump was nothing sinister, I feel a run of good news coming your way.
Aw thanks ladies - love the toast, Ange! *hic*
Better catch those finger buns while you can PP, I think they're only selling them until mother's day! Love that N's got my back, little darling that he is!
Thanks for the hand-holding and the toast-joining...the news-breaking began yesterday. My stepmum & dad were just crushed. It went as well as it could but was every bit as horrible as I imagined. I felt much 'lighter' afterwards, but only because I passed my burden onto someone else.
It's a big step for me to even do that, normally I'm MD the invincible who has to cope with everything by herself. They both silently freaked out about the superbug at the RAH until I finally thought to say that it'll be nowhere near where I am. Now I have to tell my mother, that'll be a whole new can of drama right there. :(
Told H this morning. We sat down with a chai latte and a box of chocolates and just went for it. I thought of all my long-distance hand holders and took a deep breath and started. LUCKILY they had the Can-Teen puppets at school earlier this year. I had *completely* forgotten, but it meant that H was pretty philosophical about it all. OMG I can't tell you how grateful I am that they paved the way for me by dispelling all the cancer myths and talking about the survivors (instead of that big fear we all have that Cancer Means You Are Going To Die). We then did distraction therapy this afternoon with shopping (new winter clothes) and a movie...I'm sure there will be some fall out in the days to come but we will get lots of family time because it's still school hols here. And really, that's all I can do.
I am feeling a bit scared myself today. Having people around me freaking out kinda reinforces that it really is a bit of a scary situation. So I've got to get zen again. Focus on the now.
On the downer, found three job ads this morning that I would ACE...if I was looking for work now. :(
On the bright side, someone told me about this hair salon a few weeks ago...I had a good feeling when they were talking about it. So I drove up and down that road this morning looking in all the windows until I found it (couldn't remember the name). Turns out there is a stylist there whose sister had some breezy-headed time last year, so she is going to do my hair for me, this week (for family photos), then before chemo, and then again if it starts falling out (buzzcut LOL). They are way funky in there so I will be stylish throughout. :D
OMG MD I must be hiding under a rock sometimes I swear. :rolleyes:
You sound like you are well and truly on top of this mentally (most of the time) and it won't be long I'm sure before you're on top of it physically as well.
Add my hands to the giant cyber-circle of friends holding it together with you. :hug:
Hi Md - I'm so glad that your beautiful Miss H made your difficult task so much easier. I have a feeling she takes after her Mummy ;)
One of my close friends ( you may have seen her post after you on fb) also had to deal with a lump in her breast last year. It was difficult for her to share the news with everyone as well. She generally keeps everything to herself until after the fact. (she has a rare tumor producing disease) I think she saw how upset people were getting when she told them later. We all wanted to be there for her. Anyhoo, I'm so glad that you have told most of your fam. Hope everything goes well with your Mum.
Those job advertisements have probably been put in the paper to tease you ;). There'll be an even better one waiting for you when you're ready i'm sure.
Way to go on getting a funky hairdresser.
love ya
Bionic Lady of the Ample Bosom, I dips me lid...
XOXOXOXOXO
before you buzz cut - go dye your hair a MILLION funky colours!!!!!!!!! c'mon you know you want to do that ...... ;)
love you babe & sending strength!
Nothing makes me feel better and more positive than funky great new hair. So, I am so pleased you can now face this in style!!!
As for sharing with the familty... And feeling the need to remain strong, it is not easy, but please remember you can draw on our strength when ever you need it. xo
oh MD it must be really hard to tell people - their reactions are just bc they love you so very very much. I am so glad that H made it easier for you, what a special girl she is - def a product of you my dear! the distraction theory sounds fabulous... and I LOVE the sound of your new hairdresser...
Hmm will pop out for another pinkie later today.
MD - glad that telling H went well, she's a great little girl you've got there.
Funky hair cut sounds awesome - especially lots of different colours!!
xoxoxox
I second that H def takes after her mum in the positive spirit stakes! and don't worry, if there is a fall out in the next couple of days you and DH will be there for her. xx
I guess for the ppl that you are telling it is a whole lot of news all at once; where you have known for a little bit and have had some journey of exploration to find out what it is etc., for them, it is straight up. so it may seem like they are not going to cope, but i reckon with time and with their own bit of exploration they will be your rock and pillars of strength.
lots of love and squishy hugs
clare
Thinking of you Marydean ... & sending you extra big heartfelt wishes for tomorrow :hug:
... only thing i can say to you for now is - Wow, lovely lady you have a ton of people whom care about you in a big way right here ... yep, 12 pages & counting ;)
We are ALL gonna be with you in spirit tomorrow ... now that's a lot of people :D
:loveshower: Love & hugs from Lorelle (& lil Cendrine) xox
Wow on the telling Miss H, and the hairdresser! And telling people!
You're a marvel, young lady, and you have a huge support group here just for you.
PMSL at Lulu's comment about bionic lady!! !
Thank you ladies. I will be thinking of all that support during those freaky moments when they wheel me into the theater before they give me the good stuff to send me off to lala zone. xxx.
xxxxxxx MD
hey babe! thinking of you today and hoping that you are doing well and the op is over before you know it.
Luv,
Clare
xx