Limeslice - thank you!!! i really do need to start acting like an adult and be responsible
Limeslice gave you some excellent advice. I hope you really take on board what she said hon. She was brutally honest but I agree with her and believe it needed to be said.

You need to fix yourself first - that is your number one priority. Get your meds sorted out and definitely get onto counselling. If you speak to your GP about it again they can do a mental health assessment on you and you will then have access to a Medicare rebate on psychologist appointments. When I was seeing my shrink for onset depression a few years ago, I was paying $40 for my hourly appointments instead of $150. A friend of mine actually got access to free psych appointments when her marriage ended so you may be able to find the same.

I honestly think psychologists or psychiatrists are the ones you really should be speaking to about ADs too. It's their field, they know a hell of a lot more about them than a normal GP. Counselling is so important for mental health issues as well. IMO, taking ADs without counselling (for things like PND, onset depression, etc) is like being a diabetic and taking insulin but not watching your diet. They just go hand-in-hand.

I know what it's like to have the burning desire to want a baby, it's full on. I also know when the time is not right and, as Limeslice said, I know how to take responsibility for my actions and act like an adult. DH and I had major issues in our marriage a few years ago now and I desperately wanted a baby - I was off the pill, charting and all that jazz but I then realised the timing was all wrong. Brining a child into an unstable marriage would have been foolish and selfish. We postponed the baby making for 2.5 years! Our marriage was rock solid by then and we both knew that a baby was the right thing for our relationship. I know, from reading your posts, that you know all too well how full on parenthood can be and the strains it can put on you and your relationship. Keep that in mind when the desire kicks in again - you have a lot on your plate at the moment.

If your DP isn't keen on condoms then tell him to steer clear. Is there any reason why you're not on the pill already? It's cheap (much cheaper than another baby!) and effective so if your DP is really not into comdoms then that would be your next best bet.

Good luck hon. I really hope you get things sorted sooner rather than later. You're doing a great job as a mum though, just remember that.