I really screwed up tonight...Spock was tired! All her signs, yes it was earlier than normal, but she was getting to the going crazy hyper stage so I took her to bed before that could happen. We did everything like we normally do, she was even getting doppy on my boob. I tucked her in, said good night and went to sit on the couch in her room like I normally do and wait for her to go to sleep. It's normal for this to take 45mins to an hour. I don't know what it was about tonight....I don't know what started it... But I got so fed up. I yelled at her to go to sleep. The first few times she laughed me off. Then I found my angry voice and terrified her. But she still wasn't going to sleep. So I laid down with her, said I will sing her one more song, patted etc... Then I said good night again. But she still wouldn't GTFTS! After 1 1/2 hours I said good night, I'm leaving the room and you are going to go to sleep. I did. Stood around the counter she got up... I just calming placed her back in bed. After like 4 or 5 times I yelled again =( really angry. Terrified her. Put her back to bed... This happened 3 more times and she was hysterical. She was staying in bed but crying and saying mama and daddy over and over and over. I sat still in the door way. I don't know how long...my heart breaking. But I couldn't back down. I can't. I do believe you have to follow though. Keep it consistent. Now that I had made it clear she was not to get out of bed and she had to sleep, I couldn't go back on it. I couldn't be gentle again... Had she gone to sleep and woken up I could. I could be gentle and sooth her. But not until she went to sleep.

I just tagged out. I said to DH he can do what he wants, but I'm tagging out. He went in had a chat with her and they are sitting on the couch watching tv. I'm staying out of view.

I don't know what to do. I really failed tonight. And my poor girl suffered for it =**(