Thanks so much everyone, just what I needed to steel myself for another night. Tonight, I will soothe with gentle words and not get angry. That's the goal. Wish me luck.
Big hugs OP You sound just like me. During the day I can cope with anything, I'm super mum lol. DH not so much, he gets frustrated at tantrums and her changed mind every two seconds. At night we switch.
She still feeds to sleep, but every now and then that won't work. Last week it didn't work plenty! So I spent up to two hours feeding her with increasingly bad latch which hurt, was uncomfortable and made my skin crawl. I spent that time singing to her, patting her, shushing her. After two hours she asked for boob yet again and I snapped. I told her I'd had enough of this ****, I'm quitting, I'm over it and I'm going to bed. Then I stormed out and left her to DH.
My heart broke as she started crying and yelling for mummy, but I couldn't go back in because I knew I couldn't put up with more than five minutes of that again. After 15 minutes DH came out - she'd fallen asleep with him patting her back and singing to her. Then I cried because I hadn't gotten to say goodnight, the last she heard was me losing it and storming out
I try to remember things like that when I'm in that moment, but it's seriously bloody hard when you've given your all for an entire day and then you're just getting beaten up at the end of it.
I'm hearing you OP. I needed to read your thread after the night I just shared with DS. As soon as I turn the light on in the morning and look at this being that terrorised me for most of the night (we are going through a rough cosleeping patch) my heart melts and I'm glad I was there for him regardless of the thoughts I had during the night. xx
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You sound just like me. During the day I can cope with anything, I'm super mum lol. DH not so much, he gets frustrated at tantrums and her changed mind every two seconds. At night we switch.
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